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Bouncing Along In Life - 2
By Tiuniasing | July 13, 2007
… “Dude, you’re so tall. It’s very difficult for you to get a girlfriend, you know?? Most of the girls are short. Since you have got a chance now, go ahead!!”
About one month after I had been seeing CJ, he finally left us for a brand new world for good.
During the examination season, I was in the multiple hall, in the middle of solving the questions for my Mathematics paper. Suddenly, the examination invigilator walked to me and said:-
“Are you Tiuniasing??”
I nobbed to answer yes. She continued:-
“Your brother’s friend is outside now. He is telling that your brother is in a critical condition now. I think you have to make a move with him to the hospital immediately. And don’t worry about this paper.”
I quickly kept all my stuff and sped 160km/h along Federal Highway to University Hospital. When I reached the entrace of the ward, my late-brother’s friends and classmates were already flooding the whole storey of 11th floor. I asked my dad about my brother’s condition, he steadily shoke his head and said my brother is fighting for his last breaths now. I rushed to my brother’s bed, I saw him breathing with the help of some hospital devices. His breathing wasn’t smooth at all, and he was already unconcious. His girlfriend was sitting beside him, and holding his right hand with both her hands. I went to the left side of the bed, and I called his name. He opened his eyes slightly, I guessed he heard me calling him. He couldn’t respond me with a word, and I could see that he’s trying hard to pass me a message, but I did not know what it is.
The doctor declared his death about one and a half hour later. I do not want to describe about how sad and upset everybody is at that moment, because I feel like a knife stabbing into my heart everytime I imagine the moment. I couldn’t help and my tears were squeezed out uncontrollably for the first time since the age of 9 of mine, when I saw my mum crying deadly there. I wasn’t crying for my brother’s gone, but I was crying for my mum’s sadness. I saw my dad removing his lou fah spectacles, and rubbed the shed tears. It was the longest moment that I have ever had in my life…
I was with my mum, trying to comfort her though I knew it’s impossible. She kept embracing me and said:-
“He is gone… He is gone… He has left us… How can he do that to me?? How…”
Then I hid in the staircase and called CJ. I told her about everything in the hospital and I said I think of her at that moment, because I needed someone to talk to…
Topics: Life |
I didn’t get to see my brother’s last moment. He passed away in the middle of the night where only 1 people is allow to take care of him. When dad told me he’s not going to make it, i sped as fast as I could, but it was too late by the moment I arrived. The doctor was already there checking his dead body. My mum took it better than me, she was the one who asked me not to cry. Haha sorry Mr Tiu for flooding your comment box, whenever I read post like this, I”ll go emotional. I’m still trying to cope, he only left us 11 days ago.
anthraxxxx,
I’m sorry to hear about your brother. You will get over it soon. He is always in your mind.
Luckily I have you dropping comments here, otherwise I would be wondering if there is anyone reading my blog.
May they all rest in peace. I traveled back to Malaysia recently because my maternal grandfather was in a very critical state.
Turns out the hospital screw up with what supposed to be a very normal operation and he passed away shortly after that. We all block it out and try not to focus on it, because I believe we will never be able to “get over it”, only perhaps “get used to it”. I still misses him dearly. It is hard and very emotional to think of.
hey thr, i’m sorry to hear bout tht..
i’m always here reading ur blog, just that sometimes dunno what comment to leave..
ur blog is interesting, i love reading your blog..
ponikuta,
you are getting used to it and will get over it, it’s a matter of time only.
I love your tattoo, very nice pattern you have.
MaXx,
hahaa… Thanks for your praise dude. Thanks for loving my blog. I will cut down rubbish entries, you can take my words.
sorry to hear that and may he rest in peace
Tiu,
so sad about your brother, if this is a faith he had to leave your family, no choice & hv to accept it..
im sorry to hear about ur bro Mr.Tiu.I wouldnt imagine how i would feel if i were to lose one of my siblings =(
mochii,
I am alright. It’s been 10 uears already.
mankeong,
yeah, I have already accepted it. Life moves on, that’s why I am here writing about my stories.
edwin,
Everyone will have to get through this, it’s the matter of sooner or later only.
*wipes tears* Tsk tsk!
*looks around for Part 3*
NO PART 3?!!
Rabbit,
stay tuned to part 3!!
my father passed away 10 years ago - liver cancer.. your story is short and simple yet i can’t control my tears..
p/s: i read this while i’m working - luckily no one realised it since i’m suffering serious flu + coughing!!
mh,
sorry for making you touching your heart. Take care dude…
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